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I choosed these songs because I've have broken up with my girlfriend because we kept on fighting and she decided that she had enough, I kept on blaming her for cheating I just didn't trust her while I kept on asking her it took her 7 Months to finally admit that she kissed a guy while out socializing because I kept on blaming her she went and did it in badness.

I was listening to the radio on my IPhone and these songs kept on coming up they seemed to put my mind at ease. I was extremely heartbroken crying all week thinking of her constantly and I'm a man.

I never knew love could do this to a person it was the worst experience of my life anyway I was chasing after her begging her back crying on the phone which you should never do :/ it's just because I was and still am crazy in love, this was last week we broke up and she said she didn't want me back.

Once I stopped chasing after her, after I gathered my thoughts and though what the hell am I at I decided to make her Jealous by posting up some photos on Facebook with another woman I knew she would look at my profile loads of the other girls friends liked the photo haha I let my girlfriend sweat for a couple of days. I noticed she was adding all her ex and boys she kissed on facebook, I was like this has to be getting to her if she's doing this. I wanted to txt her so bad but I thought to myself this chasing after her is not working. so I waited & waited for her to come back if she ever did I only waited 2 weeks but they were the longest 2 weeks of my life.

Next of all she txted me this message this is the exact one copied from my IPhone

That is so unfair what u done Shane. You asked me not to put any photos up of me with other boys because it would break your heart even more, so I haven't I haven't even taken any photos with anyone. How do u think it makes me feel seeing you in photos all over other girls?

I acted stupid and I thought to myself "well well well love!" the tables have surely turned, she's getting jealous this is a good sign haha so I decided to play a little mind game. I kept on being cold hearted in my messages deliberately even though I truly love and care for her every cold hearted txts acting cool even though I was in a mess, I slowly was reeling her in, finally she sent me this poem.

Can You Ever Forgive Me?
I'm sending you this
With hope in my heart
That it isn't too late
For healing to start

I can't right the wrong
That I've done to you
Or undo the heartache
That I've put you thru

And I can't change the past
Like I wish I could
There's no way to go back
And turn bad into good

But if you'd only let me
I'd sure like to try
To be someone you need
And want in your life

To show you I love you
And how sorry I am!
Can you ever forgive me
And love me again?

I know I fucked up Shane and I am so sorry for everything I said and did. I'm sorry for everything I said. I know we are meant to be together and I'm sorry it took me to now to realize. Please please can you give me another chance and start again. I know you hate me at this minute but we can rebuild our love. You don't have to answer me now you can think about it for a while but please say that I have another chance. I will do whatever I can and whatever you want to make it up to you.

After that I still didn't give in ; ) Treat them mean keep them keen! I was like sorry Ruth you ended this relationship not me you shouldn't be bothered if I kissed this girl or not because you broke up with me, Your loss....... "I know Shane and I'm truly sorry for what I did I would take it all back if I could"

She was down in her friends 4 hours away from my house up in the north of Ireland, she got the train up to mine,

I said Ruth you can come up and we can talk things through but we have to sort out our issues before we can start in a clean slate. Okay she said I will do anything to make this work I will walk on hot coals if I have to, I'll take you into the pub and buy you a few drinks to talk this through.

Anyway she came up and we walked to the pub feeling really awkward I talked to her saying Ruth I know I cant trust you but your gonna have to help me through this process, we have to stop fighting all the time. She was like will you be my boyfriend again? I smiled inside & I paused....... Em well okay then but if you put me through this again it is over she was like I promise baby I will never do it again. Then we hugged and kissed and the smile she had in her face was priceless. She was like I really missed this.

We sorted things out between each other and now we have gotten back together and now were stronger than ever. It's funny that all of this happened coming up to valentines day too.

My cousin once told me if you let them go and then they come back it is meant to be what a true statement.

I'm a christian and I'm religious I play the guitar, produce & sing my friends and family's tell me I have a amazing voice I'm not being big headed but even when I play in the pubs everyone's heads turn.

Here's a cover of me singing I only played the song once and recorded it Kodaline - All comes down
https://soundcloud.com/shane809/all-comes-down-1

In the bible there's a chapter called Ruth you should check it out it's a beautiful love story.
It matched Me and Ruth because our love is so strong, I prayed and prayed for gods help next of all she said she kept on seeing people playing the guitar in Derry which kept on reminding her of me and seen so many Shane's on her Facebook ticker even meeting people called Shane it just kept on reminding her of me with Gods help he mended this relationship.

Sometimes being heartbroken is the only way we both learned about each others faults and how to fix them. after all god is love he put's us through these trials for a reason so you can learn from your mistakes. This story goes on longer even the way it started off but my hand is getting tired lol

PS : We had amazing make up sex the best we have ever had, Thanks your reading,

This post was written by Shane & Ruth and originally appeared on The Mix’s sister website Madly In Love.

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