I want my girlfriend to realise how strong she is

Jonathan's girlfriend is the love of his life, but he's struggling with her depression.

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You know those people who just walk into your life and just rock your world with their presence? Well that was how I meant the woman of my life, Michelle. She is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever laid eyes on. Her smile could bring a room to cheers, and her huge heart could save the world of every little bad thing in it. I remember the first day we met and how I promised her that I wouldn’t leave her side and six months later I have not.

They say love makes you do crazy things, well I never did imagine myself writing on a blog about my love life but I felt like this story should be told and shared because it’s not like normal love stories. First let me get it very clear I love my girlfriend with all my heart. This is the woman God sent me and I feel is meant to be. When she told me she had been fighting with depression for about four years, it didn’t change the way I looked at her. I loved her so much that I told her she is still amazing, beautiful, and the most caring person I’ve ever met. I told her that I want to go through anything for her, that she wasn’t a freak and that I loved her so much.

For about six months we’ve been dating and things would go up and down I would try to talk with her. Sometimes it would work, other times it wouldn’t. Soon enough she gave up on herself. I kept telling her not to – that it will get better, that I loved her, that she could open up to me. But the darkness that loomed over her was too strong.

Sadly it has been worse but I still love her. She sometimes says things that are hurtful when she doesn’t mean it. Sure, she’s made me cry and hurt me a little with some of the things she’s said but I love her and I don’t want to lose her. We have one more year of high school and so far it’s been an eye opener on how those with depression and those around them live day by day. I’ve done my research and read books about it and tried to understand her and help, but my fighting skills are no match for what looms over her. Sure she’ll have her good and bad days and I know she loves me with all her heart, but sometimes I feel like I’m losing it.

I want her to realize she is strong she can do it and she will do because she has it in her, just like everyone who suffers from this darkness can. I hate to see her like this.

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